|| Tuesday, July 26, 2005

*SCREAM*

*GET LOST~!!*

heya..

i sound agitated?

quite lah..getting pissed off with some matter..

was kinda tired so i din blog last night..

well..have been attending and pon-ing the different talks..so boring..

sch formally starts next mon for year 1 student teachers..lotsa admin stuff to settle this wk..

registered the modules tat i need to study this sem..6 modules..

maths modules increase to 4 AUs instead of 3 AUs..and the rest are 3 AUs each..enjoy man..

met lotsa ppl these two days..ppl whom i havent met up for years..ppl whom i've always wanting to me..and of cos..ppl whom i hope i'll never see them again..

no classes for tml for it is a flag day..none of the ppl in my grp is going..

i guess i need to recap on my chem and maths..

lotsa stuff to settle..got to think wat i've got to bring to hall..gonna get the txt bks needed for lecture on next mon..

lotsa of ppl are wondering why i can stay i hall when my mum has actually objected it..hmm..shall i just say i have the rights to choose what i want?..2nd bro is totally cool abt it..and he shld be sponsoring me..so wat's the prob man..all along you have been thinking that i'm too pamered like a princess..so isnt is the best time to show you that i can be independent?

thanks gene..xian..and yc..gonna help me to carry stuff to my hall on sat..gene and xian sacrified thier tennis to come and help..=)

hope my 2nd bro doesnt need to return to camp on sat..or i got to take cab down..

having team bonding on thurs..shld be quite slack..the group is going to be my GESL with effect from year 2 all the way to year 4..so gonna know them now..

fri is a boring day again..nothing but talks till 3.30pm..gonna meet yc after that..he wanna come over to look for 03S13 gers..hee..hope he knows how to come..dun get lost hor~..=p

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well..well..been hearing lotsa stuff these few days..my turned off mode is turning to pissed off mode very soon..

cant i just start my uni life in a more peaceful way?

dont say u dun bother when u actually do..

maybe we shld just lead our separate lives in uni..dun want to put you in jeopardy as well..being stuck in the middle is terrible..

shocked looks = sarcasm = making me feel unbearable

do you understand?

**[:: she whispered at 9:12 PM ::]**

|| Sunday, July 24, 2005

heya..

woke up this morning..packed my stuff for tml..not much stuff to bring actually..and i'll never forget to bring my hall application..lalala~

den..went to cwp to get the pair of scandals that i've reserved..k..finally gotten a pair of scandals..

later..went to mr evil's hse..as usual..a road idiot like me..got lost once again..but..i managed to find my way thru by myself..i'm so proud of myself man..hee..

rion's back fron hk..had a short chat with him..and he bought me a soft toy from hk..so cute~

thanks thanks..=p

and sweet mr evil plaited a friendship band for me..

it's pink~..

^thanks mr evil^

joy going to camp tml..gonna miss her man..but it's okay..meeting her on sat..just the two of us..hee..

well..1st day of sch tml..looking forward?..not really lah..gonna be talks and talks and talks..i'll try not to slp yah..hee..meeting of og at boon lay to go to sch together..nice nice..=)

i guess in the afternoon will be better..cos there'll be a freshies ceremony in ntu..gonna meet up with kolay and others..yeah~

miss them lots..

**[:: she whispered at 10:16 PM ::]**

heya..

went to give tuition in the morning..all the way till 3pm..

den..met up with joy in town..

sad..wanted to get the sandal tat i've wanted to buy since last wk..but guess wat..their smallest size was 5.5..faint..too big~!!

had an early dinner with her at swensen..yum yum~

then..sig came to join us..kept insisting tat he wanna watch movie..but well..we din in the end..went to the aracade followed by nydc to chill up..realised tat nydc is always the last stop before we go home..hee..

later on..mr evil came to join us..chatted for awhile and we headed home..

sig..hmm..i have no comment for you le..-_-

gonna wake up early tml to settle some admin stuff and to pack my stuff for sch on mon..

gonna be a brand new start..cool~

and guess wat..ultimately..i maybe staying in hall..lalala~..shall see how on mon..

mr evil: i'm a girl with attitude..not as nice as you think..hee..=p

**[:: she whispered at 12:48 AM ::]**

|| Friday, July 22, 2005

heya..

conclusion: red candy sucks..

i cant deny tat it's kinda scary but the ending sucks..

*confused*

nothing happening yesterday..but was kinda disturbed by wat my kids had told me..

yup..as for today..was rather pissed off in the early afternoon..supposed to leave sch after 1pm..but i ended up slacking in sch..

don kept asking me to pick up the call..

but being an attitude girl..

i ignored the calls..

but well..i returned call ultimately..

met up with mr evil at westmall..poor guy..had to endure with my temper..

i was fine after pouring out everything..

den..had to return to cwp..family dinner..my mum's bdae today..

haPpy bIrtHday mUmmy~!

after dinner..went shopping for awhile..my 2nd bro bought me a pair of 3/4 pants and a belt..

tHAnks koR~!

hmm..gonna be a long tml..

gonna give 4 hrs of tuition..den meeting joy and maybe sig and kolay..going to town to buy some stuff plus dinner..

jOy: coNgrats~..i waNna be Ur 1St paSsengEr okIe? =p

sU: duN overwoRk youRselves k..must rEst woRz.. =)

mR eVil: thanksforyourcareandconcern..

*muackz*

=X

=asimplelifeiswhatialwayswanted=

**[:: she whispered at 9:42 PM ::]**

|| Thursday, July 21, 2005

break camp~

heya..

i'm back!!..hee..

in nbss now..reliefing again..

kinda tired..havent get back the hrs of slp tat i've loss during the camp..

camp was fun..my group got the best og award..

X-III

we rox~!!

during the 1st game on the 1st day..i've already got myself extremely dirty..flour..mud..etc..

2nd day was draining..went ard s'pore..and it started to rain heavily when we reached esplanade..

some of us had to dash thru the rain to get the answers..it was kinda scary..there was lighting and thunder..

but..we got the answers ultimately..hee..four of us were drenched..and i was freezing cold..esp when we were in the train..*trembling*

we got back to nie on time..yeah~

we intended to get some coloured papers to make 3 cards for our ogl..but..the nie bookshop was closed..

-_-

so..called someone for sos..sean was really sweet..bought the papers..came all the way to nie..and left them outside our tutorial rm..

then..he came back again to give us some coloured pens cause he expected that we needed then..thanks yah..=p

last day was a slack day..had mac for breakfast..followed by two talks and prize presentation..

then..had buffet lunch..the food was great..to end off..we took lotsa pics..

met up with sean after tat..kinda tired..so he sent me home after that..and i slept the whole day..hee..

gonna give tuition later..shall prepare a chopper..to kill myself after that..hee..

he's gonna come and fetch me..poor guy..cos i guess i gonna vent my anger on him..oops..=p

**[:: she whispered at 12:06 PM ::]**

|| Thursday, July 14, 2005

lost in my eyes ^_^

heya..

thanks joy for taking half-day leave yesterday just to acc me to nie..

*touched*

went out with sean yesterday after all my registration done in nie..

we walked a lot..kinda enjoy it..i just enjoy walking and walking provided i'm wearing my flats..hee..

however..on the way home was sucky..was alone and many questions kept flashing in my mind..

-tear-

knew that i had to make a decision that very night..so i did..

luckily..joy was on the other side of the phone..encouraging and supporting me..=)

no matter what was the decision..someone would get hurt..

i'm sorry..*guilty*

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as for today..was supposed to have tuition after sch but my kid was having fever..poor thing..so i decided to cancel the tuition..

met up with sean..chilled out at coffee bean at westmall..den..walked to joy's tuition centre to look for her..and we took half an hour before realising that the centre is hidden at one corner which was not sheltered..

-faint-

met up with joy and had dinner with her..we went home after tat..feeling tired actually..

anyway..to rion..i shld be the one feeling grateful for you're so willing to take over my relief teaching..thanks thanks..

short day for me tml..

hmm..where should we go?

but it seems that you're busy..

it's alright then..

there's always another day..

**[:: she whispered at 11:02 PM ::]**

|| Tuesday, July 12, 2005

i dont wish to fall again..it hurts..

heya..

hmm..feeling kinda tired actually..but just dun wanna slp as yet..what/who am i waiting for?

after teaching..went to meet joy and shit..was kinda late cos the HODs and mrs neo were discussing abt relief teaching..they're indeed lacking of teachers..they're looking for sos now..extending my stay all the way till my sch starts..

had lunch at crystal jade..the portion is rather small this time..dunnoe why..

then..went shopping..bought something..went all over orchard to look for it..at last..i've found one that has caught my attention..

shopped till ard 7pm and we headed home..

cant teach tml cos i gonna go to nie for registeration..meeting sean after that..just wanna chill up..

well..was clearing all the smses which no longer are impt and meaningful to me..removed the pics on my table..they shouldnt be on my table in the first time..

i know something's bothering me..but wat is it? -shrugs-

confidence level = zero

who's gonna boost it up?

who's gonna walk alongside with me?

are you willing to?

- trust..commitment..communication -

**[:: she whispered at 11:36 PM ::]**

|| Monday, July 11, 2005

in nbss..

heya..

i'm back again..was rather bz for the past one week..hence..no blogging done..

i've been reliefing in nbss since last tues..

my weekdays went quite fast..after teaching..i would either go home and rest or gone to give tuitions..simple life i guess..

on sat morning..went to moe to sign the teaching training agreement (TTA)

i shall announce that i'm gonna be a slave to MOE the next 8 donkey years~

i'm feel really grateful to my 2nd bro and my aunt..

my bro was supposed to return to camp in the morning for stand-by due to the london blast..but he actually took half-day leave to drive me down to moe and be my surety..thanks kor~..u roXx!!

and as for my aunt..she actually agreed to be my surety without hesitation..so touched..

since my bro has to rushed back to camp..my uncle came to fetch us..and he drove me to su's hse..so sweet of him..=)

den..su and i went shopping for awhile before meeting our gang..hee..

gene got us a shock of our lives..he was sound asleep and we couldnt wake him up..poor gene actually..had night duty and only managed to get afew hours of slp before meeting us..

went to cine yuki yaki to celebrate su's and bang's bdae..really enjoyed ourselves..as usual..i was the entertainer..whereby i always kena the unfair treatment..right su?..hee..

on sun..went to imm and jp with joy..did some shopping..was so crowded..and i've sinned again..bought another skirt..hee..

den met up with my kids..tan fon..joel and simon for dinner..went to look for my 1-2-5..hee..and we went to play pool..hee..fun fun~

was reading the straits times just now..go and read page H8..the 1st article..it's actually something that i've been longing for..will my dream becomes reality?..who can help me to fulfill my wish?

going to catch a movie with rion later..gonna watch six..a thai horror movie..hope it's nice..and hope the outing will be enjoyable..going home to get a change..to something more casual..

gonna have a packed schedule for this wk as well..and i like it..yeah~

su: i'm thirsty~!!

**[:: she whispered at 10:26 AM ::]**

|| Monday, July 04, 2005

no hope

is better than

fake hopes..

stop treating me like a FOOL..

**[:: she whispered at 1:22 AM ::]**

|| Sunday, July 03, 2005

drunk..

heya..

hmm..went drinking just now..abit high now i guess..hee..

met joy in the afternoon..den join yc and his ns frens at bugis to play pool..havent been playing for quite some time..

den..met sig and we had fish and co for dinner..

after that..they wanted to catch a movie but was fully booked..hence..we headed down to aladdin for a drink..well..my aim was to pass something..

got there..kinda surprised that nic was at the bar..din noe he was working there..wonder since when..irritating guy..forgotten my name..at least joe still remembers me..hee..

dunnoe why..just felt like drinking till i get seriously drunk but joy stopped me..k..had two glasses only yah..

and i know i shldnt drink much too..has fallen sick this morning..wanted to eat medicine before going to drink but seems tat if i'd done so..i jolly well have landed in the hospital..haa..

so went drinking without taking any medicine..

sean was nice..called me to make sure that i was fine..he din want me to drink too much as well..thanks man..

den..xian and bang were at cwp to wait for me..and they sent me home..thanks too..

on the way home..i almost fell down..luckily i grabbed xian just in time to stable myself..hee..or i would have sprained my ankle..

well..one burden off my mind..i guess..

shall see wat happen tml before my volcano erupts..

for the time being..i just feel like saying..

f*** off..

**[:: she whispered at 12:36 AM ::]**

|| Friday, July 01, 2005

brain dead..

heya..

only had 4 hrs of slp..played 3 hrs of tennis this morning with gene..while xian and bang joined us later after sch..and went to give tuition after that..and for the whole day..i only had an apple..din have time to eat..

hungry and exhausted..

feel so tired..both physically and mentally..

something has been troubling me all these while..but all of the sudden..i just feel like letting go..

joy insisted that i say everything..but..is there a need?..why is it me again?..if he remembers..if he ever bothers..he would have asked..

dun tell me about taking the initiative again..i'm sick and tired of this word..

sean's in ubin now..cant crap with me tonite..but at least he bothers to msg me when he's free..

* i might be a cruel heartless bitch..but at least i'm good
at it *

**[:: she whispered at 6:22 PM ::]**

*-* the girl*

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