|| Tuesday, May 31, 2005

heya..

took my bro's laptop to blog since tat su wants to watch tv..gonna make her feel guilty..hee..kidding..

got waken by a msg at 7am this time..guess wat..went to sentosa..was rather rushed..but at least i was able to reach harbour front within an hr rather than 2..

the sun was shining brightly when we got there..think i've turned even darker liao..more ppl gonna mistake me as a malay..sian..

managed to watch afew episodes of bleach..shall go xian's hse to watch more tml if possible..since i need to pass him something and he needs to pass me the money for the rackets..

su..u better be able to make it tml..gonna bring some for u hor..

gonna wake up early to go get some groceries tml before shit comes to my hse..has been waiting for tml to come since last week..cant wait man..hope it'll be a success..hee..

hmm..delong gonna cancel his tuition for next wk cos he has another camp..gonna be the 2nd time..asked him if he wanna change to another day..but he didnt seem to understand wat i was saying..sigh..he changed a lot after the last tuition i had with him..think he has found out something which isnt true actually..at first..i tot i was thinking too much..but even su feels that he seems to know something..

as much as i do not want him to get the wrong idea..i've the responsiblity to help him do better in his maths..hinted him that he may forget the things that i've taught him and he actually said he would not forget everything and would remember at least a little bit..oh man..i'm really speechless..shall see how much he can remember the next lesson..

to all navalities: know it's hols now..but do not slacken..rather disappointed to hear that some of you have done badly for mye..while u shld relax during this hols..gonna do some revision as well yah..

*bleah*

**[:: she whispered at 9:52 PM ::]**

|| Monday, May 30, 2005

heya..

woke up not long..was lazing on my bed..since i know i've nth to do even when i wake up so early..

went out last night with don..he wanted to get rid of his guilt..hee..

met with rather late..at 11.30pm..all because of the formula one car race..ferari is getting so lousy..

on the way to the bar..we talked a lot..guess he needed a pair of listening ears..

he asked for my help..shall help him wherever i can..

hmm..got home quite early actually..reached home at around 2.30am..enjoyed the breeze once again..but i felt it was different..maybe i shouldnt expect too much yah..

yup..gonna be another slacking day..sian..

sab: i'm fine..it's not becos of ys..y do u think it's becos of him?..hee..

**[:: she whispered at 12:12 PM ::]**

|| Sunday, May 29, 2005

heya..

the rain has just stopped..cool weather now..

went out to have dinner with my mum and 2nd bro..while shopping mum was talking abt hostel again..thinking of the stuff that i need to get..and she said 2nd bro would help me bring all the stuff there..i asked if she would come together..well..she wants to but..ultimately..doubt she would come..think she just cant bear to see me stay in hostel..

well..i got to learn to be independent no matter what..at least she is more reassured when i told her i would go back every weekends..to make sure my elder bro nvr enter my room..if he ever dare to..

went home after that to watch the live music awards..

memories flashed back when i heard one of the songs..

it was by wu bai..nvr in my whole life will i tot i would noe how to sing..

it was in J1 when i came across the song..and someone actually taught me how to sing..and that someone had been singing it to me for more than a year..

was looking through the lyrics last night..and i realised the meaning of it..kinda late though..what's past is gone..

woke up quite early today..hmm..you woke me up..make u feel guilty..hee..kidding..

was supposed to learn how to cook chicken rice from my mum..but..erm..i think she ended up cooking everything by herself..haa..

gonna meet shit's cousin later to pass him the sleeping bag..dun even noe who he is..hope i dun give the wrong person..hee..

after that..gonna go for tennis lesson..

yup..guess that's gonna be my sunday..

*to all navalities who are taking your chinese O level tml..all the best..stay focused..=)

**[:: she whispered at 11:46 AM ::]**

|| Saturday, May 28, 2005

heya..

hmm..mum woke me up to have breakfast..-faint-

wanted to sleep longer..slept late last nite..was talking to yin chong for 2 hrs..think his hp bill gonna explode..every nite oso talk on phone..and his bunkmates scolded him for talking too loudly..haa..

well..was crapping with hin and at the same time..he was 'counselling' me..haa..feel so much better after that..at least he has kinda woke me up from the unrealistic dream..thanks man..=p

gonna be a boring saturday again..shall slack at home..

i need to call up many ppl again..regarding the bdae celebration..shall get wk to assist me..with him ard..everything will turn out great..

sab: sorry..but doubt i would wanna watch..the moodis just not there..get james to go with u k?..sorry..

hide: if u're reading this..eh..dun think i wanna have lunch tml..just wanting to go for tennis..msg me to confirm again k..


*release the kite*

**[:: she whispered at 10:36 AM ::]**

|| Friday, May 27, 2005

**tired of controlling.broke down.let it go?.tears**


heya..

forced don to stop surfing the net to let me blog for awhile..

yup..in sch now..

feeling kinda moody..i noe i shouldnt be..but..

din really slp well last night..couldnt slp well actually..a lot of things are spinning in my head..

everything seems so fake..i'm trying to hide everything..tot it would better to hide everything and act as if everything's fine..but it's really tough on me..i really dunnoe wat to do..and is there anything that i can do?

hmm..wanted to go cwp to walk ard alone later..

but asked hide along instead..guess i need someone ard me..yup..

-sigh-

**[:: she whispered at 11:22 AM ::]**

|| Thursday, May 26, 2005

heya..

hmm..saw gene at the mrt station in the morning..was talking to him throughout the journey..talking abt jap animae..abt future..blah x 3..

went to sch today..just as boring..slack the whole day..played arm wrestling with students..so funny..hee..

ys came to talk to me..everything's back to normal i guess..lotsa stuff to catch with him..

after sch..met up with shit for lunch..went crazy again..ate a lot..then..went espirit to try out some clothes..gonna buy it at cwp tml..

then..slacked at jon's shop for awhile..was playing with his laptop..hee..

well..tennis lesson was cancelled..time crashes..it's okay..some other days then..

got back home..bathed..and can came straight to blog..had to check something for yin chong..hope it helps him in one way or another..yup..


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anyway..here's a notice for 03S13..

bdae celebration on 18 june '05 @ yin chong's condo..
bdae celebration for who?..kindly msg me for more info..and pls pass the msg ard..i need the confirmation asap..thanks thanks..
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**am i still waiting?**
**or should i just let it go**
**blank**

**[:: she whispered at 7:02 PM ::]**

|| Wednesday, May 25, 2005

heya..

just feeling bored..so shall come and blog..

mrs lee called just now to ask me back for relief tml..sure..if not..i gonna be at home all y myself tml..cos my mum's going out with my aunts again..

shall go straight for tennis lesson after that..too lazy to come home and change..

slacking at home with my mum now..listening to techno songs..dunnoe where my bro got it from..

was talking to my mum about uni stuff..mum gonna ask my aunt to order the laptop for me..was asking wat kind of laptop i want..anything will be fine as long as it's light and small..hee..

dun wanna carry a heavy one to and fro..can die..

mum and bro keep wanting me to go hostel..hanna hanna..shall try out and see it's like..shld be fun..not mentioning about washing clothes by myself..and cleaning the floor.. -faint-

gonna buy clothes for uni too..mum's going with me..but not gonna get them so early..or i'll start wearing them now..hee..

feel so bored now..shall do some drawing later and maybe go for a jog..nth better to do..

**keeping myself so so occupied**

**[:: she whispered at 2:56 PM ::]**

|| Tuesday, May 24, 2005

heya..

this morning..nBsS called me again..was awake when the sch called..kinda expected that they would call..

got there before lesson started..don saw me..he was guilty..hee..but din have the time to talk to him..my timetable was packed..and by the time lesson ended..i got to rush to give tuition..

was kinda bored in sch..

started drawing..did a drawing for 1E1..

hmm..really miss the period of time when i enjoyed drawing so so much..i could spend up to 5 hrs straight to draw..and my parents would be there to support me..and my dad would praise me whenever i finished a drawing..well..it is the past already..

went to give tuition after sch..after the tuition..all i can say is..can someone kill me.. -faint-

went home..felt that i needed a little breather..went jogging..

had a little gastric pain while jogging..maybe bcos i din eat much..din have the time to have a proper meal before tat..

feel so much better now..everytime after jogging..i would feel comforted..it's like things that have bothering me would just fade away as i run..

sab dearie: i am fine..at least for now..thanks ger..really touched to learn that u actually went to the mrt station to see if you would meet me..hope everything's fine for u too..hols is coming..got to make gd use of it k..catch up with you real soon..

yah..mum saw my tattoo..she accidentally filpped open my hp and saw the pic..and she insisted in showing her my back..haa..kpo queen..she din say anything..well..she doesnt mind i guess..

hmm..i have to move on..no matter wat..may the strength be with me..hee..lame..


*daddy..i miss you*

**[:: she whispered at 7:26 PM ::]**

|| Monday, May 23, 2005

heya..

home sweet home..

got home at ard 2pm..and half an hr later..my mum's hm..

found out the my elder bro brought his gf home again..shall get it from me later..

last night was really fun..

su and i were so bored..

we went to old checkpoint for a walk..and bought some food home..had a mini party for the two of us..hee..

slept at 2am..wanted to stay up longer..but i was so so tired..fell aslp all the way till ard 9am..

shall slack at home for the whole of today..

2nd bro is watching star wars now..yucky..hee..

**[:: she whispered at 3:02 PM ::]**

|| Sunday, May 22, 2005

heya..

well..blogged at 2am this morning..but the internet connection got cut off and there goes my blog..

shall make a brief one then..yesterday was a packed day..

went queensway with gene..kel..xian..bang..and su..enjoyed myself..

i was the joker of the day..i'm always the joker anyway..had lotsa fun..so comedy man..

den..went ecp with su..the students gave me lotsa food to eat..really nice..

den..midway..something lame happened..just a child's play..

left ecp at 9pm and went home to change..cos don wanted to go for a drink..fine with me..

after that..went to cwp to meet up with gene and gang to chat first..and were waiting for don to come and fetch me..

we waited for a very long time..don was still mia..wat the..couldnt contact him at all..

then..i left with su and her parents..we had supper together and went to her hse to stay..will be staying for two nights..

my mum would be so happy..at least there's someone to look after me..

hmm..din really slp much..not used to slping without air con..kept playing with my pigglet..

next morning..my piglet woke su up..hee..got ourselves prepared..had breakfast that parents had bought for us..so sweet of them..thanks thanks..and we went out..

rather tired when on our way back to woodlands..i actually fell aslp in the train..yawnz..

we made toast to eat..erm..more like su made it for me..and she taught me to do some washing..but din really succeed i guess..hee..gd luck to myself if i wanna stay in hostel..hee..

hmm..just hope that i wun kena fly kite again..hate it man..once is gd enough..

and just let me do whatever i want..dun stop me..

**[:: she whispered at 4:22 PM ::]**

|| Saturday, May 21, 2005

heya..

home alone again..

mum just left for hols again..

cooked breakfast for me before she left..

mood swinging here and there again..

when will THE msg come?

or never?

-sigh-

**[:: she whispered at 11:56 AM ::]**

|| Friday, May 20, 2005

heya..

shall blog since i've nth to do..

went..received call from nbss to go down for relief teaching..agreed..and i took cab down..

supposingly to meet su in the morning..to get some stuff done..-failed-

shant talk about it..it'll just make me feel more moody..sigh..

after sch..met shit..she accompanied me to do air brush tattoo..

i like it a lot..

actually..tot of doing a real one..but..well..shit gave me one month to reconsider before making any decision..so..one month from now..it'll be 20 june 2005..hmm..i shall be patient..

bought a tube as well..

din really have the mood to shop..

wanting to go out at night..

don flew my kite..watever..

no one seems to be free..sian sia..



there're some things tat i kinda getting impatient..or shld i say..drained..has my effort gone to waste?

only one person can give me the answer..

**[:: she whispered at 7:42 PM ::]**

|| Sunday, May 15, 2005

heya..

shall update abt tml..

in the morning..went to sentosa..on the way there..it rained..kinda spolit my mood..but luckily..it stopped once we reached harbourfront..

stayed at sentosa till 2pm..was really tanned..grabbed a bite at harbourfront and headed down to orchard..

went to play pool at cine..and had dinner at cafe cartel..our last stop was to take neoprints as we had extra money..

after that..met up with amanda and steph..it rained again..although i had umbrella..we were drenched..argh~..

went to mox..din like it..steph and i kept wanting to go back to eski..yup..got there at ard 1am..i din drink cos i knew i couldnt take it anymore..

stayed there till 3..was waiting for amanda to finish drinking for beer which she was being dared..

took a cab down to orchard..and took a NR home..was rather tired..

got home..was expecting a msg but..my hp din ring at all..*disappointed*

slept all the way till 12nn..wanted to slp longer but a phone call woke me up..joel called to ask me chemistry qns..got to go down to civic to teach them again..shall recap on my chem as well yah..

yup..shall end here..tata..

**[:: she whispered at 1:36 PM ::]**

|| Friday, May 13, 2005

status = single

heya..

hmm..yup..many things happened..was once devastated..friends were damn concerned..but hey..i'm fine now..no worries yah..

well..went to queensway with hide to look for tennis racket..going on sunday to buy it..

den..went to city hall to look for nightwish album..but was out of stock..sad sad..

den..met up with shit at cwp..she was supposed to knock some sense into me..but when i met her..everything was fine already..went shopping..bought some stuff again..went foodcourt to have dinner..and we chatted for quite some time..hee..

had the sudden tot of having a tattoo..shit supported me..but..as if my mum would allow..pigs can fly if she really agrees..

yup..back home..gonna apply my purple nail polish..but before that..got to pack my bag for tml..TaNniNG @ SenTosA..finally the day has come..heE..

yup..tat's all i wanna say for today..tata..

**[:: she whispered at 8:22 AM ::]**

|| Thursday, May 12, 2005

all i want to say is..sorry..

-devastated-

**[:: she whispered at 1:26 PM ::]**

|| Wednesday, May 11, 2005

heya..

hmm..havent been updating for the past 5 days?..my schedule was rather packed..and whenever i got home..either i woulod be too tired or both coms were being occupied..

shall briefing talk abt wat had happened the last few days..

cant remember wat i did on sat..yah..i went to play tennis with hide..so fun..hee..

as for sunday..went to civic meet up with tan fon and gang to study maths..erm..i was slacking there actually..at night..went out again with friends..got hm like 5 am..can die man..

for monday and tuesday..was bz with the teaching bond..had to travel to nie and moe respectively..just signed the bond with moe yesterday..gonna be a four-year bond..wish me luck yah..

hope joy will get in too..and she can share the hostel with me..dun wanna stay alone..hee..

as for today..shall stay at home..eh..tan fon asked me if i would be going civic later..think think 1st..

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this is for those going to sentosa on this sat..u guys shld noe who..

need to keep u guys updating since i'm the one organising..

two places you can meet up: 8.30am at JE mrt platform or 9 @ harbour front bus interchange..

shit is going to bring two mats..

i nd to noe if anyone is going to bring frisbee or netball..just msg me to inform me yah..

and..after tanning..will be having lunch..thinking of meeting lizhen after the college day to pass the bdae present to her..and are u guys interested in going to pub?..joy doesnt mind..so just wanna know who are interested..if not..we can just go shopping den dinner..yup..tat's all for now..just pass this msg around yah..thanks..

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to my teddy bear..

ppl always say..if u grab the string of the kite too tightly..it will snap..if u hold it loosely..it will fly away..

so how are you going to get the balance out of the two?

well..i choose to hold it loosely..

both of us have too many things to do..that we are not able to meet up often..but i'm fine with it..

i used to enjoy material comfort..but not so much now..even since i started to work..

u should know what i really want..

there are so many things that i want u to know..but i shant rush things..shall take one step at a time..

-hugs-

**[:: she whispered at 1:58 PM ::]**

|| Thursday, May 05, 2005

heya..

shall blog before i go for my dinner..

i'm so guai today~

stayed at home for the whole day..

well..was supposed to give tuition today..but..that teresa cancelled it at the last minute..and said that he wanna have the tuition only after mid-year exams..wat the..

an hour later..teresa msged to ask if i could go and give tuition then..i refected it cos i felt that he has no interest to excel at all..

and i felt that i was more eager than he did..i even had to msg him last night to set a tuition time..forget it..i will only tutor those who are interested and eager to learn..

just then..i asked hide if she neededuition not..and she agreed..great~

slack at hm..watched dvd..and was uploading pics onto the com..

just received a letter from nie..having a tea session on monday..got to travel all the way to nie somemore..yawnz..

meis~..i got the pics uploaded already..hee..

sab: i know u're feeling very stressed up..endure k?..after your mid-year exams..we shall catch a movie and chill a little..miz ya..=)

su: cheer up ger..things may be getting out of hand..but i'm sure u're strong enough to face them..dont take things too hard..no matter wat..my family and i will be there to support you..u go ger~

navalities: mid-year exams is round the corner..jia you..i'm sure you guys will do well..all the best..

**[:: she whispered at 6:36 PM ::]**

|| Wednesday, May 04, 2005

heya..

finished my dinner and here i am..

as usual..went jogging in the morning..

den accompanied shit for her interview in moe..unexpected questions..

went to town to shop..

went to most of the jewel stores cos shit wanted to get something for her grandma..and she got a blue crystal jem from goldheart..not bad..

had lunch at crystal jade..ate a lot man..yum yum..

got myself a mango bikini..looks alright..so bought it to pamper myself..hee..

shit accompanied me to khatib mac to look for my kids..they needed someone to teach them maths..

had a fun time there..saw a shuai ge..but..nvm..

left at 7pm to meet su to go hm together..went to cwp to get her dinner and we left..

while waiting for bus..delong called me..and stupid like hell..i board the wrong bus..

when i got up the bus..felt strange..din feel like the bus i've always took..i was right when the the turned to the left instead of going straight..was too embarrassed to alight at the 1st bus stop..wanted for someone to press the bell..i hurried got down the bus..oh man..where were i?..called su for sos..told me the way..

finally saw the market that i used to go with my mum..like more than 4 years ago?..tried to recall the way back..finally..saw some familiar sites..

got hm..told my mum and bro that i took the wrong bus..and they started to tease me..saying must be there were some shuai ge and i just followed him up the bus..what the..please lor..the driver is an old uncle lor..hee..

everyone who saw me today tot that i was crazy..i had my hair plaited into two..my mum did it for me..hee..just felt that i wanna have a change in hair style..hee..

**[:: she whispered at 8:46 PM ::]**

|| Tuesday, May 03, 2005

heya..

yawnz..wanted to wake up early to go for a jog..but felt that i needed more beauty sleep..well..excuses..

had a memorable time yesterday..

met my squadmates at papy lebar and left for ql's hse..

while some were starting the fire..some were chatting away..two little boys came..they were so rude~..they sat down at our place and asked for a cup of drink..they did not even say a please..if i was their mum..i would definitely give them two tight slaps..ql was nice to pour them a cup a drink and the boy was still choosing from the different flavours..wat the..be glad that we are giving u a cup of drink and yet u still wanna choose..omg..

they did go after tat..they continued sitting there..i got pissed and i asked the kids where were their parents..one of them apparently got scared and kept quiet..but later..he asked for a cup of drink again..and i said if we would give him provided his parents were present..

hwee got fed up as well..went straight to the boys and said.."why not i give u a cup of drink and you get lost?"..and guess wat the boy said.."then i dun wan the drink".. '_'

fine..we ignored them..just dun disturb us..well..at least they created some entertainment for us..hee..and this answered the question why i dun wanna teach in primary sch..

well..had lots of 'intellectual' talks again..afew mths ago..we were talking abt getting a gd boyfriend..now we are talking abt getting a gd husband..

we left at ard 11pm..took the longer route hm cos wanna accompany pj..gonna meet them on friday night again..

got hm..was tired..went straight to sleep..

gonna give tuition later..prepared all the stuff that i need already..

hmm..wonder how are the kids in nbss now..

how's sab..hope everything's fine for her..time to settle down for some solid studying..

**[:: she whispered at 10:58 AM ::]**

|| Monday, May 02, 2005

heya..

gonna blog abt yesterday..

went to northpoint in the afternoon to meet tan fon and gang to study..and i bought afew cards for the nBss teAchers..gonna send them through mail..

at 4.30pm..met up with the 3e4 ppl to go marina south to have bbq buffet..

as usual..some were late..hee..

later..deric low..phang and levanne came..had a lot of fun..all were talking non-stop..

after the buffet..went to play pool and aracade..

jelyn..i got blueblack on my knee because of u..hee..

the whole outing ended at ard 11.30pm..

yar..sunder msged me during the dinner..but i was too busy to entertain him..

book a cab and left with fann cos she's staying at admiralty too..

found out the fann is staying in the same block as my ex..just 2 storeys different..

got home..din wanna slp yet..went to mark some tuition hw..slept at ard 1.30am..

this morning..wanted to wake up early to jog..but i was too tired so i thought of sleeping longer..

but the delong called me to wake me up at 8am..oh man..i was so tired..later..i went back to sleep again..hee..

went jogging at 10.30am..kinda warm then..but i just had the urge to jog..

all alone at hm now..mummy has gone to my aunt's hse..my bro is sending her there..

having a squad gathering later..got to take train all the way to paya lebar later..yawnz..another bbq to go..

**[:: she whispered at 1:02 PM ::]**

|| Sunday, May 01, 2005

heya..

as usual..didnt have the time to blog last night..

reached ecp at ard 12nn..got there..the guys and some girls were in the water..and i started chatting with adeline and wei lin..my mei meis..they're really sweet..=)

den..stayed at ecp till 4pm..before we left..had coffee at coffee beans with my mei meis..had the sudden urge to drink coffee..

yap msged..to thank me for the cd..den..i was damn sacastic say that if his gf misunderstand..tell her that we are just FRIENDS..if not he can just throw the cd away..lala~

den..we took a bus followed by the train to tanjong pagar..

in the bus..tan fon..mei meis and i were gossiping abt 'theresa'..hee..'she' asked me to watch house of wax with 'her'..but i doubt so cos i wanna watch with sab..hee..

was so fun when we were in the train..they greeted me loudly with good afternoon ms lena tan..so embarrassing but was really memorable..we created a llot of din in the train..reminded me of when i was a sec sch student..=)

throughout the whole day..i kept insisting of dawing su ling's eyes with eye-liner..find that she can be extremely gothic..den justin was so happy..wat a bf man..never even help her..hee..

den..we walked to the uic building..never gone there before..and i will never forget how joel crossed the road with me..i'll get my revenge..hee..

had dinner at noble house restaurant..tan fon and gang started singing..throughout the whole dinner..u could laugh non stop..and there were really a lot of good food..yum yum~

finished dinner at around 11..and guess wat..the dinner cost near 900 bucks..cool~

took train home..again..created a lot of noise..hee..

while i was walking home..was talking on the phone with delong..heard from him that someone is spreading a rumour abt yap and i again..and it's one of james's friends..gonna find out who is it..

got home..saw a letter sent by moe..i'm offered place in ntu for bachelor of science (edu)..got to send the reply slip soon cos there's a briefing on 10th May..shall take these few days to consider..but i'm happy though..=p

k..got to have my breakfast..gonna meet hide later and head to marina south for their class gathering..gonna have buffet for 4 days straight..wo~

**[:: she whispered at 10:36 AM ::]**

*-* the girl*

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